I need

blackamazon:

I am sad and heartbroken and.

well evil.

Troy Davis… will probably die today.

Full stop.

His mom will get a call that her son is dead , that even the possibility of the sound of his voice is far too much to ask of this world.

That’s her baby

Have you ever, truly loved a man of color?

I mean truly, like looked at him and felt a section of your heart walk around out of your body ?

Not in the crush, or the unf ” He’s so hot?!? Omg!!” way. But looked at him, loved him, to the point he was a reason to be alive?

Fell in love with his brown eyes, or his beautiful corse hair , the way he loved his momma or daddy, how he rolled his r’s or swayed his hips when he salsaed.

Have you ever looked at him and felt truly the beauty of the world ?

Now I want you think about that hard for a minute.

And feel that

And realize the words for these men I LOVE are

Nigger
Spic
Chink
Wetback
Faggot

I want you to think about how that’s what the justice system means, when they see these people I love.

I want you to take the knowledge of whatever guy you’re so like in love with

I want you to smell your son

I want you to call your daddy and laugh at his cornball jokes

And I want you to know that all of that is why people think my loves are expendable

And them shut up about it. I want you to know you can never truly express that love healthily.

I want you to know that you can’t talk about that fear with put ” pulling a card”

I want you to have so little with which to feel that love that your speciality becomes self immolation

I want you to NEED to believe that the proper way to love someone is to love them more than yourself . I want you to navigate that in a world where it’s not about guilt or shame but about god damn survival . I want you to KNOW that no one gives a fuck about how you feel and what you lose, let alone your goddamn intent

If you feel that just achey DESPAIR for ten minutes or a week

Every single woman of color who NEEDS this moment

Has felt it her whole fucking life

Will feel it even harder today

Will feel it as she looks at her baby tonight

And I need you to tell me truly

Right now

What you are possibly gonna add?